Hmmm….
I feel the need to be nice to others…why?...because I want to be liked.
I am not a leader but a follower. With leading I’d have to be on guard, I’d have to watch where I was going, I’d have to be careful…as a follower, I can just lazily stroll behind.
When it comes to being nice, I am on my own. I am my own leader!
I am responsible for my own actions…naughty or nice!
I agree with others when actually I have a totally different opinion.
I do what others want instead of what I want…in favors of being liked.
If it’s no big deal, which most of the time it isn’t, then why make an issue out of it??? Just so I can be negative???...nah…I’d rather keep peace!!!
I seldom say what’s on my mind…I reserve myself.
Some tell it like it is…if you like it, fine…if not, too bad! I’m not like this type of person.
But…
Sometimes I’m not very nice….
Sometimes I am short with people…
Sometimes I don’t want to agree with everything…
Sometimes my mind is pre-occupied…
Sometimes I want things done my way and only my way…
Sometimes I second guess myself …
Sometimes maybe I just want to express myself…be more outspoken, tell it like it is…
But will people still like me, show me respect or will they say I have changed and run away???
I’d rather be nice…and be liked… than to stand up and be alone!
I do have a backbone!!! It may be twisted and out of place, but it is there and I prefer to leave it alone!
If it is true that a nice person would only be an honest person…
Then…I guess I’m not a nice person…I am not direct with people….or not as often as I should be.
It takes me too long to think…by this time either I said a wrong comment or I think too long at it and that conversation has left and we are onto a new one…
Oh this almost sounds more like an honesty writing!
But I tried putting it as nicely as I could!!!...
Honestly Reese! big grin,
ReplyDeleteYou are perfect.
reese.. i am in awe of you. sometimes you just say the things i want to say.. and you just say it so much better! candid and straightforward and beautiful. and i will love you no matter what you say or how you say it. you are.. just as rosie said.. perfect. :)
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