Forever Young: {[ Day One ]}

Blog Manifesto

This blog is dedicated, as the title would suggest, to the qualities of being young. We are young writers. We are playful and sensitive, fluid and changing. We are unashamed with our art. We wonder at the world, puzzle over the meanings of things and twirl in delight at images and ideas that float by, grabbing at them as they pass. We are curious and constantly inquiring and prying concepts open and taking assumptions apart. We are on the ground, close to the earth. We have bare feet and wiggle our toes into nature. We carry our blankies still and wrap up cozy and comfy with each other and tell ghost stories and shiver at creepy things. We laugh and we cry and we take a lot of naps, drained from our outings and exertions.

We write as gifts to each other, tying them up in ribbon and leaving them around for each other to find, hiding and waiting for the person to wake up and read. Surprise! We weave our stories together to create a bond. One writes, then the other. then another again. We have a shared reality that we have crafted, bit by piece by patch, by string. We write simple, honest authentic things, with our unique voices. You can tell each one of us from the other, without knowing who wrote what. Our voices are clear and gentle and original. We whisper and our personalities roar! Like children, our feelings are strong, our passion for what we write shakes us. We are moved and sometimes left breathless, by our own words or the words of each other. We cannonball into each others spaces. We fall backward into each others writing, like into a pile of leaves or a soft bed. We gobble and grin and ask for more. (footnote kudos to JC)

Then we go to bed, wake up to a new day and do it all over again!

Wednesday, March 14, 2012

{[ Day One ]}

I dont know where to start but I guess I'll figure it out while my fingers move as my mind stares at the page. I deleted everyone. Not because I hate everyone just because I needed to breathe.

For the past week I have been laying in a deep dark hole as dirt was being thrown on my body. I couldn't move..still I barely even feel my fingers. I had to take a huge step back so that I can move forward. I love all of my friends and it makes me sad that I even deleted them in the first place. But at that very moment today I felt it was right. I have been saying some pretty hurtful things here lately to someone. And it makes me sick. How in the hell could I sit there and tell someone the things I've been saying. I'm not like that. I dont know where the hurtful things came from. I couldn't possibly feel any worse then what I do now knowing that I was being so mean. And with that, thats my reason for leaving for the time being. Rosie and Reese..I am not mad at either of you in the slightest. I will eventually add you two back in time. Only if you..want to of course. I don't expect either of you to add me back just with a snap of a finger. It was wrong that I did it in the first place. And I am ..deeply sorry. I just need to be stress free..vc free..IM free..just FREE.

I have alot of health problems for my age and I have been thinking of that as well all day.

I am tweenty seven years old with some of the worst problems known to man. And you all..my friends know most of these problems. Some know more then others. I take eight different medications. Just four meds alone for the BP. And I am terrible at remembering to take all of them. I constantly get the third degree about my meds. But here lately someone has been helping me and I thank him.

I understand this is a blog and not a chit chat corner but I will be using this for now just to get used to things until I come back.

I will blog the themes when they are presented just as if I was still around.

I'm not leaving forever. This is me working on me.

I want to feel good about myself first.

I took someones words and did a big thing today.

But..I will leave that for a different blog.

I love you all..I miss you all..

I'm sorry.